There is this physical element of being in relationship with God where I can sense that I am surrounded by love. It is not a constant feeling but I have had it enough time to begin to recognize it. At first it caught me by surprise because it sounds like it would be as though one was enclosed from the outside by this feeling. Instead it is a sense of warmth that resonates from my heart. It is as though God wants me to know that my heart is always protected by the love in which it was created. I am able to connect to it when I focus on my heart and breathe into it. Again, it doesn’t happen every time, but when I feel as though I am surrounded outside of me by energy that feels unsafe or uncomfortable, I can draw my attention to my heart and visualize light. Sometimes it helps to imagine the glowing light of a candle inside my heart. As I intentionally stay focused on the sense of warmth and protection from within grows. I think we all have this capability. It is something that I came across by accident in my date time with God. As part of my search to expand my meditation toolkit, I found myself piecing together things I learned from various traditions and teachers. It is not easy to maintain my focus there but if I am able to do so for just a moment, I am brought back to center. It keeps me from defaulting to the belief that I am unsafe and need to be protected from the world. When I feel that way, I want to close off my heart. It is as though God is telling me to lean into the warmth of God’s presence in my heart and be surrounded by an impenetrable force. As I walk through deeper levels of my recovery as an incest survivor, I connect with the wounded little girl inside of me who needs to know more than anything that there is and always has been a surrounding of love around our heart. No matter what happened or can happen, it cannot be overcome by anything. The presence of love is in me in such a deep way that one day it will radiate so much that it will surround me completely.
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