dailydatewithgod

When we are drained of our own resources we find ourselves in a seemingly bad spot. Yet it can be the very moment from which great transformation can occur.  Empty and with nothing to bring to the table we are open to receiving what God has to give.  So often the problem is not that God does not want to give love and so much more to us, but we are full of so many other things, there is no room. I remember early on in my recovery when it dawned on me that I had been so busy filling myself with food to solve my problems, there was no room for God’s solutions.  Further along I acknowledged I had let my heart get filled with anger and grief and built a wall around it.  It was a childhood concoction of safety.  I did not leave any way for God to show me how to reconnect with what was truly there.  Our emptiness makes us willing to learn like a child learns.  There is no expectation, there is no previous knowledge with which to compare.  A child is simply willing to be filled up.  When we find ourselves in situations with adults we rely on, we allow ourselves to be filled up with whatever they have to offer.  Then we decided it must be what we deserve as did they.  God has a grander plan than that.  Maturing in my relationship with God has meant emptying myself of old and painful ideas of love and safety in exchange for what God has offered.  For me, it was not until my tank of what I knew ran empty that I was willing to let God truly fuel me with his love.

My prayer for us is the courage to allow ourselves to come to God from a place of emptiness and receive the love we are designed for today.