dailydatewithgod

One of the signs that I am living a life in recovery is remembering there are alternatives.  When I was in my addiction there were typically two options.  There was not alternative than the story I had in my head.  It was not safe to check with alternatives because you might tell me I was wrong and mistaken.  This would confirm my story about myself that I was a mistake and I was wrong.  It is a difficult space to live in physically, emotionally, and physically.  I am grateful for the breakdown of the ridiculous and unsustainable system of living.  I am grateful it broke for me functionally before it broke me and robbed me of my life entirely.  God continues to be the best alternative that exists. The moment I reach for God and ask, “God, show me how you see this.  Is there something here I am to learn?  God, I am open to a new perspective, be gentle and guide me in my heart to this new perspective.”  Any of those alternatives give me a chance to live with discovery and openness to growing my heart to light of life.