As I was growing up I noticed a tendency I had to over-explain something or myself. I was so concerned about what people might think about me I figured if they had more information they could make a better judgment. My efforts to elucidate however were often met with greater confusion or simply disregarded. We all have a need for love and approval. It is inherent in us as far as I can tell. I only recently feel after these years of daily dates with God that the concept of being worthy of God’s love simply because I am alive has begun to sink in. It is one thing I do not need God to elucidate for me. If nothing else I can chalk it up to the fact that God does not see things as I do. God does not carry the judgments I have about myself. God does not put conditions on love. It would be like putting conditions on himself. She would not be the being of love if it were to require elucidations. There are situations where elucidating is helpful but when it comes to elucidating so that it alters someone’s perspective of me, most of the time it is not. People, strangely enough (are you picking up on the sarcasm here?), think whatever they want regardless of what I elucidate. The peace I find in knowing the very being of love provides the love and approval I truly seek from my heart of hearts allows me to step away from the often exhausting task of needing to elucidate about myself or my actions. Despite my ingrained thinking I do not need to elucidate why I like one thing over another unless someone asks. I do not need to elucidate why I feel the way I feel in order to make the fact that I am experiencing a feeling okay. I may want to get further clarity if I find myself always feeling and reacting to something in a way that is not helpful for me, but the elucidation is not to make it okay to be human with feelings. The elucidation I seek in moments of truly needing to feel loved and accepted is much like how I see God described in one of my all-time favorite songs by Queensryche’s, Silent Lucidity:
There’s a place I like to hide
A doorway that I run through in the night
Relax child, you were there
But only didn’t realize and you were scared
It’s a place where you will learn
To face your fears, retrace the years
And ride the whims of your mind
Commanding in another world
Suddenly you hear and see
This magic new dimension
I will be watching over you
I am gonna help you see it through
I will protect you in the night
I am smiling next to you, in silent lucidity
If you open your mind for me
You won’t rely on open eyes to see
The walls you built within
Come tumbling down, and a new world will begin
Living twice at once you learn
You’re safe from pain in the dream domain
A soul set free to fly
A round trip journey in your head
Master of illusion, can you realize
Your dream’s alive, you can be the guide but
I will be watching over you
I am gonna help to see it through
I will protect you in the night
I am smiling next to you
. . . and despite the knee jerk reaction to explain why this song means so much to me, I choose not to elucidate. I trust God knows what it means to my heart when I hear it and that it will speak to you and elucidate whatever it is meant to when you read the lyrics or hear it for you.
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