dailydatewithgod

There are many options available if we are looking for someone or something to blame.  It is the mystifying element of the universe that we can place responsibility on so many different elements because who is to say what is truly the cause of something.  I learned how to abdicate responsibility and ownership of my life well from my early experiences as an incest survivor.  Anyone who has ever been a child dependent upon another for his or her survival has had this experience in being a victim of circumstance.  I believe it is part of the human growth experience to go through this process. As we step into adulthood and grow the connection to our hearts we can see with a clearer vision where we can take ownership of who we are and our experience.  Yes, there are events we cannot change, as much as we may think changing them is the answer.  There are horrible experiences and circumstances we have had to live through.  For some, it was events that anyone would concede as horrific and for others their individual experience of whatever it was felt horrific.  This is not about a comparison of atrocities or who was really traumatized.  There is no point in that.  We all interpret our experiences the way we do. The key for me has been to note the fact that I survived it.  I know I did because I am still here.  This tells me I can own my survival.  However, I coped with what I perceived as victimizing was the way I was able to take ownership of myself and my own heart. I did it through food and self-hatred.  Not ideal, but they worked well as tools for a long time. When I reached the point of my heart knocking loud enough inside of me about how they had stopped working, I stepped into another level of ownership of myself.  It is at this point when I could hear God’s invitation to ownership of the truth of who I am rooted in who God knows me to be.  Stepping into the ownership of the truth of who I am continues with my daily dates with God.  The more I connect within my own heart, the more I see that no outside circumstance or experience could ever or would ever undo God’s creation of me as a being of love and light. Ownership of my own heart gives me the courage to see myself through the eyes of God. Ownership is what reminds me in times of stress to pause and ask God, “How do you see this?” Ownership of my path thus far enables me to let go of the idea of being a victim and recognize the resilience and capacity to sustain even the smallest knowing of the truth who I am even in the middle of everything that screams the opposite of that.  Ownership of the truth within our hearts is God’s invitation to dance with life.