I have often heard people talk about how puzzled they are about how as human beings we have this propensity to not sustain the things that are good for us and to give in too easily to the things that are not good for us. I have certainly had that experience through my dance with addiction. In general, I believe we have just as much propensity to stay on kilter as we do to go out of kilter. I believe it has more to do with what we pay attention to and what we are committed to. In the deepest part of our nature as well as our animal nature is a commitment to survival. What may seem like the things that will cause us to go off-kilter and lose our state of working well may be the very thing that will keep us alive in the moment. It is not so much about how to avoid getting out of kilter as it is about knowing how to get our kilter back. Reorienting my life through my daily dates with God and the steps in recovery brings me back to kilter. It is those things that daily feed a sense of freedom and fulfillment which keep me in tune with my heart. I know if I stay committed to them I am likely to stay on kilter. If I renege on my commitment to myself by not showing up for those things I am more likely to be thrown off-kilter. A willingness to grow in relationship with our hearts is what brings kilter to our lives. Our hearts embody the core of our true selves. The reality is there will always be things poised to throw me out of kilter, and if I am not grounded in the truth of who I am, I will fall for them. The time we spend cultivating awareness of our hearts will provide the necessary landing space when we do go off-kilter by providing a pathway back to kilter. God has taught me nothing is lost or pointless. If I use it to grow in love, anything which causes me to get out of kilter can bring about a return to my heart.
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