dailydatewithgod

I am amazed at how quickly we become accustomed to change.  We are very adaptive and have always been.  It is how we keep growing.  The comical element is despite how adaptive we can be, we resist change mostly out of fear.  The same mind that shows us the way to adapt is also the one that creates fear scenes of how it will turn out badly.  When I stepped into recovery it was clear that I had a malady.  The 12 step literature taught me that my malady was spiritual in nature with a physical manifestation known as food addiction, negative thinking, and obesity.  The problems I was having that led me into recovery were not the malady they appeared to be.  It was the underlying way in which I was handling my life. I used the tools I had and it was clear I needed a new set of tools.  The tools I needed were the ones most suited to address the malady.  The ache of fear that was running my life kept me disconnected from my own heart.  The irony, of course, is that it is the malady that brought me to my knees to seek out a different way.  So the malady was the initiation into discovery a way to connect to my heart which housed my true self. God slowly on our dates invited me to see the role that the fear malady played when I let it run the show and what happened when I remembered to breathe into my heart and awaken love. I now think of it as a dance.  When the fear malady shows up, and I feel my breath constrict, I am prompted to breathe deeper and reconnect to the truth of who I am and what I truly need. It is not a dance I always welcome but by taking my heart’s perspective to the fear malady I can see it and all of who I am and who others are with compassion.