dailydatewithgod

After what seems like a lifetime of thinking that perfection is what I am supposed to be aiming for in life, I find myself confused about new conversations around failures and flaws. I hear things about how it is good to fail and fail fast.  And while I know I have never achieved a level of perfection in any area of my life I have always been drawn to the idea.  It sounds safe which I realized after much soul searching was what I was really looking for.  Given that failure meant I was not approved of and therefore not safe, what else was I to choose except to either be or appear to be perfect in as many ways as possible.  Again, not like I achieved this supposed perfection.  Besides, I noticed along the travels of life that the perfection level seemed to change at every turn.  Perfection like beauty was in the eye of the beholder.  The bar kept getting raised and if I got close to what I thought it was, another who seemed to know what they were talking about did not see it as perfection.  It left me wanting to give up before I started.  On my daily dates with God, I began to make room for what I call the flaw of perfection.  Two things, in particular, stood out to me upon examination.  One is that nothing or no one is perfect all the time. The other is that God made us perfect just as we are so perhaps the drive to perfection is a calling to return to the truth of who we are.  The truth which originated in us long before we stacked up the stories of how we were not perfect enough and proceeded to prove otherwise.  The flaw in the perfection is the ridiculous value we place on something we think we need to find or become.  The flaw of perfection is embracing that at our core we are as perfect as we need to be.  The flaw of perfection is that it is too simple to be real according to a mind that is constantly calculating what is wrong with everything and everyone.  The flaw of perfection is that it is, in fact, the facing of our flaws that brings us back to our hearts which reminds us of the perfection residing deep within us all along.  So like my nightshirt says, Flawsome (adj.) – an individual who embraces their flaws and knows they’re awesome regardless.