dailydatewithgod

It is hard to imagine that one can transform their lives so much that who they find themselves to be after a time is completely different.  It is hard to imagine but possible.  There are so many ways I have witnessed both myself and others in recovery and other spiritual paths live a life transformed.  Who I am today versus 20 years ago not only looks different but thinks differently.  It is not as though who I used to be is erased.  You could say it has been incorporated and adjusted to be someone from which I do not want to run.  Being someone who lived amidst a subconscious daily mantra of self-loathing and criticism when things got to the height of my addiction, I could not conceive of the possibility of being at peace with myself and in acceptance.  I only had to be willing to see myself and life from a different angle.  I could not have chartered the path I have followed or known where my daily dates with God would take me over time.  I still do not know where this whole thing is going.  I only know that the more I come to know and accept the truth of who I am the more I see God everywhere.  More love becomes visible in the little and random moments.  It is knowledge not of the intellect but of the heart.  The heart speaks from a different angle.  Life looks different and much improved from this side.  Within my heart is the capacity to see all I am experiencing, good, bad, and indifferent as something of the moment.  From the angle of the heart, I can choose how much power I give a thought, a feeling, a belief, or an experience in this moment.  This means I can choose the angle of the heart to see it as working for me or against me.  The heart does not dictate its perspective.  The heart only provides another angle where I think there is only the one I see through my eyes.  There is no certainty in the heart’s angle except that there is always another one in the next moment, the next breath.