dailydatewithgod

The amount of connections is astounding.  The longer I am alive the more I witness the interconnected nature of the universe.  I recognize living in the flow of life means being present with how it is all intertwined.  We get so used to piecing things apart into categories and labels in our minds that we sometimes lose sight of the interdependence of it all. It can feel like going down a rabbit hole when trying to decipher the origin of something.  It reminds me of research I would do in college when I had to site-specific sources for phrases.  I found that this one was in reference to another one which was in reference to a particular context that gave it a different meaning.  It can be mindboggling.  No wonder there is sometimes a level of futility when attempting to understand our own internal motivations and actions. So many fixed ideas about what we know for sure are in reference to something that happened long before we became conscious of them.  They refer to a particular context that no longer exists. The beauty in embarking on the journey to explore with curiosity where the references stem is an opportunity to choose them for ourselves.  We cannot undo the context in which they were created.  Those conditions have already shaped us and if automatic has a familiar pathway established in our mind.  However, we can choose whether or not the original reference that our mind goes to is one that resonates with our hearts.  If yes, then there is no need for change.  If not, we can invite the energy of our hearts to shift the reference the mind makes to create something new. A familiar reference for sexuality for me is fear and anger. It is a well-worn pathway my mind travels without much choice on my part. As an incest survivor, this makes sense.  As a grown woman, it no longer serves me.  I cannot the reference that my mind is programmed to make automatically.  I can use the energy of my heart to observe it with curiosity and compassion and breathe in the possibility of creating new references.  This is not easy, but we all have opportunities to find the courage within us and use that energy of our hearts to make something of the references instead of them dictating our lives.