dailydatewithgod

While my drinking career was relatively brief, given that sugar is one of my mainline drugs, it is no surprise that I was drawn to various cocktail concoctions over beer or wine.  The explosion that occurred in my system from the medley of sugar-based elements along with the initiation of the alcoholic buzz was fun.  Unfortunately, given my propensity for not ingesting small amounts of anything or slowly meant that I did not stay long in the fun state.  I will spare you the details and just say that had I been more entranced by the lack of control that ensued I would have spent more time drinking and progressed even further into alcohol addiction.  For me, the sugar and whatever foods followed worked well enough, until I was in enough pain due to those consequences to take a different path.  On my daily dates with God which started because of the direction laid out for me in the 12 steps of recovery, I learned to fine-tune my awareness of the medleys already existing within me.  I used to look to the various sugar medleys and how I could create my own as a way to numb out the pain.  God has shown me how to connect to the medley of my heart and spirit. When the medley of being alive seems like not enough or too much and we are inclined to look outside ourselves for some relief, God invites us to get quiet and listen for the medley of our heart.  Often, I need to pause and step away from the hodgepodge of the scrambles of life and my breath is the first step.  The breath then awakens my heart which allows me to attune myself to the medley of the truth of who I am.  It takes practice especially when the medley of the world and its messages are loud and familiar.  Moment by moment I can choose which medley I am listening to.