dailydatewithgod

There is a line in the book Alcoholics Anonymous which states that one has to get rid of all their old ideas.  It is written in a great context but when I first heard it I found it to be unimaginable.  I did not sound possible.  I somehow grasped on those simple words that if I were to truly take on this 12 step way of life my whole life would change.  I had little grasp of what my old ideas were I just knew I would need to let go.  Being inclined to black and white thinking in my fear I saw myself being metaphorically stripped at once of all my understandings. In reality, it was more of a taper.  By working the steps, putting down my alcoholic foods, and adopting a new way of thinking, some of the old ideas just disappeared.  Others stuck around and when it was time for me to face them I did.  I originally feared a lot of writhing and clutching but what I found was the freedom that came as the old ideas began to taper. From there I developed a willing stance as more old ideas whose time had come surfaced.  The tapering of an old idea went from something to be feared to something I was inviting.  God showed me I had the courage in my heart to face the fear of letting go and see it for the smoke and mirrors keeping me from inhabiting the truth of who I am.  The taper cleared the path of rediscovering who I am.