It is easy to find things that disturb or annoy us. There is an endless list of things I am acutely aware of as not being the way I want them to be. Once in a while, it is my own state of mind. It is hard to be in acceptance of perturbation when upon scouring my mind cannot find a legitimate reason to be mentally disquieted. In my head as long as there is a specific cause of the perturbation then it is okay. With a specific source, I can know that by either changing it or accepting it I can move out of perturbation. I am kerfuffled when there is no source. It does not seem to matter the number of repetitive thoughts about why and even praying about it doesn’t seem to help. In these moments of perturbation, hopefully, without too much time in a mental funk, I recall God’s constant invitation to step out of my mind and into my heart. I place my hand on my heart and take three deep breaths, more depending on how many loops around my brain I have allowed the perturbation to go. I settle into how does being in a state of perturbation feels in my heart. I find myself asking what I need most in this moment of perturbation. Today what came through was just to notice that there were some unknowns but to trust that even amid the disquiet, I am okay. To recall all the evidence I have of being unknown about so many things and how I became aware just as the information was needed. I believe it is called faith. It is spoken about like it is a given or some kind of elevated state. Faith, however, requires great courage and not just in big moments. It requires it even in the subtle moments of perturbation.
Are we willing to let go of our minds’ hold when in a moment of perturbation and answer its call to step into the courage of our hearts today?
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