dailydatewithgod

When I was in college I had my first love experience.  His name was Chris and it was such a fun ride.  It hit me up the side of my head like I had banged into a brick wall.  I wasn’t it expecting it at all and it was a great first love experience. But all experiences come to an end at some point and so did ours after about 8 months.  It was hard. I don’ t even recall all the expectations I had of the relationship but it ran its course and I fell just as hard out of love as I had in.  I remember very clearly telling God three things during that time: 1) Well, I guess it’s just you and me again for a while, 2) I didn’t want to do that again unless it was the man I was supposed to marry and 3) I wanted a neon sign to tell me that it was the guy I was supposed to be with for the rest of my life.  What a surprise that I didn’t even go on a date for many more years.  I did the equivalent of padlocking my heart and posting two security guards outside.  My point in telling you this story is more about the third part of my comments to God–the neon sign.  I wanted God to tell me when it was going to be okay to take another risk.  I wanted to know that the outcome was going to make it all worth it.  What I have realized almost 20 years later is that life doesn’t work that way.  I need to following the urgings and intuitions of my heart.  I need to be willing to be in the experience.  Life is not about guarantees.  I dont’ get to wait for a sign from God–neon or otherwise to act.  If I did that I would either only hang out in the red-light district or be starved of any kind of life experience.  I know that I have grown spiritually because I am willing to take a risk.  I am willing to following those inner urges to see what might occur.  I know that no matter what happens God will not abandon me.  More importantly I will not abandon me.  I do not let the lack of perfection or permission keep me from stepping into life.  To do so is to expect that I would only act when there is no fear and I will be waiting a long time for that to happen.  My prayer for you today is that you listen to those urges within your heart and take one step in that direction knowing that God is right there with you, no matter what happens.  Make it a great one!  Peace~Colleen

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