dailydatewithgod

Sometimes we can walk through this world and our times and be completely unaware of what we are experiencing, what we are carrying in our heads and what we are conveying to the world.  I have heard it said that we don’t know what we dont’ know.  As I walk this path of life and attempt to connect more and more each day with my Creator, with who I am within, and thus with others I am continually amazed at the things that I am holding on to–thoughts, beliefs, ideas of how things “should” be.  My mind has created scenarios of how things will enfold and yet the often do not happen that way.  I think it comes from expecting the worst, or being in a place of fear most of my life.  Gratefully I do not spend a lot of my time these days fearing things.  Mostly because I recognize it as a thought and can begin to question it before I let it take hold.  One of the greatest things that I have learned is to mend any barriers that I thought were between God and I.  It took me a while to realize that I blamed God for a lot of things that were happening in my life.  Deep down I thought I deserved them or maybe I just thought I wasn’t perfect enough, so what the heck did God want from me anyway?  Somewhere in my experience was the sense to have this conversation with God.  And as crazy as it sounds, it was in my willingness to have the conversation–the authentic conversation about how I saw things and what I thought God’s role was that I began to realize that God wasn’t making things happen. Life happens.  Life happens and each is an opportunity to connect on a deeper level with the One who sees me as part of Him/She/It.  The One who knows I was created out of and for love.  The One who cherishes every single step that I make and loves it when I stumble and get back up and is right there with me, no matter how far off track I get.  The One who grants me the courage to face the things that I do not think I can face on my own.  But I had to reconcile what I thought God was and just accept that God is and see where God showed up in my life.  I had to let go of my negative mind’s projection of a some being that I had to be good for and do all the right things for.  My prayer for you today is that you have an opportunity to be reconciled with whatever understanding of God that you have that is not working for you.  That is the ultimate question after all–is it working or is it not working?  If it is not working, then try something new.  I hope you have a day of trying something new.  Make it a great one!  Peace~Colleen