dailydatewithgod

I have been known to be hard-headed at times, not open to understanding or seeing things a different way.  I presume I am not alone in this.  Sometimes my mind just grasps on to an idea or belief and will not let go.  I am grateful that my heart has the capacity to be soft.  For me, I need God to intervene to create the connection between the hard-headed brain and the soft heart.  It is in that coming together that my spirit overrides everything and God moves in and through me.  The key for me is to be aware of when I need my spirit to bridge the gap.  What I love about it is that it doesn’t make one better or wrong, it simply creates a space of wholeness within me.  Yesterday I came across a situation that my mind could not wrap its head around.  It was an expectation I had of someone’s behavior and when that expectation was not met it triggered some old story in me which made me angry.  I know it was an old story because my energy level about the situation was disproportionate to what was happening.  In facing it and the people involved I clearly needed God to intervene because being soft-hearted was not going to come from me.  So I asked God to step in.  How do I know that God stepped in?  Because I was able to let go of, just a little, the need for that person to understand where I was coming from.  I was able to see my part was that I had unmet expectations that I had created.  Did it all get tied up in a nice pink bow at the end? Nope.  Was I still left with disconcerting feelings and a let down?  Yep.  But I knew where to take the conversation–within.  I knew that I needed God’s help to shape how I was seeing things.  At the very least, it was a reminder to be kind not only to that person but to myself.  To let go of the harsh judgment. Phew!  I am so grateful that I am given these opportunities to show me how to function in an authentic way.  I still am not clear about why (understanding is the boobie prize) it happened, but if I am learning the lesson the reasons why are not so important.  Do you have times when your head is wedded to an idea and it seems as though the line to your heart is miles away?  My prayer for you today is that you trust that within you is the softest heart of all–and it is only a request away.  Make it a great one!  Peace~Colleen

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