dailydatewithgod

“Be the change you wish to see in the world.”  A quote that is attributed to Gandhi, but is actually a paraphrasing of what he said.  Either way it embraces an ideal to work towards.  I must humbly acknowledge that my experience of the world has changed as I have changed.  That is simply how it works.  As I learned to approach life in a more loving and forgiving fashion, the world turned out to be a loving and forgiving place.  When I looked at the world and the people in it through the glasses of years of self-hatred and victimization I did not see any beauty.  I had to first go within myself, no matter how afraid I was to do so, and find the light of love that was burning albeit dimly inside my own heart.  When I humbly turned to my Creator and said honestly, “I can’t do this anymore, please show me if there is a better way.”  As I mentioned before it is when I stopped and took stock of my life, claimed responsibility, and had a willingness to do things differently that my life began to change.  I was so broken down and out at that point, I was willing to do whatever it took.  It is very humbling to acknowledge that you have a food/sugar addiction and your life is out of control because of it.  It is humbling to acknowledge any form of addiction, but when it is one that  is all around you and on some level acceptable, one can deceive themselves for a long time that it is not really that bad.  But for me, it might as well have been a heroin addiction.  All addictions are simply manifestations of focus on the self.  There is little room for God when I am busy running my world.  The funny thing, of course, is that I had a relationship with God.  This I am certain is what kept me from going off the deep end or stepping into more “dangerous” addictions.  I had just learned to compartmentalize my life.  I didn’t include God in the very aspects of my life that were the most out of control.  I didn’t include God because I had decided that God was not interested in those areas of my life.  God is very interested, my diseased mind wasn’t interested in any kind of light being shown.  There is a great quote from the book Alcoholics Anonymous which deals with addiction. It is written as the author, Bill Wilson, is telling his harrowing story of addiction and recovery.  It reads, “Simple but not easy; a price had to be paid. It meant the destruction of self-centeredness. I must turn in all things to the Father of Light who presides over us all.” Most spiritual leaders and masters over the centuries speak of this same idea-letting go of the self.  When we are focused on ourselves we get disconnected from the bigger picture of life.  We are not relying on the power from which we come to guide our lives.  I believe we are here on this earth to experience all the gifts of living life.  My ego is not the enemy, my ego is only a “problem” when I let it think it is all there is.  I must remain in constant contact with my Creator because that is where my power resides.  My prayer for you today is to be aware of something you wish to change in the world and ask God to show you how to change that within you.  May you experience the power of the Father of Light in your request.  Make it a great one!  Peace~Colleen

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