God is the God of light! He encourages us to live in the light. Love doesn’t grow in the dark. It doesn’t mean that there won’t be times in the dark, there will be and we need those moments of darkness to truly be able to see the light. But to be lucid, be transparent, show God our stuff so that it can be used for the greater good we must bring it to the light. It is precisely the things that I want to hide that I need to make clear. There is no freedom in hiding. The irony, of course, is that I am not really hiding anything. The harder I try to keep something in the dark the more energy I have to work hard to keep it hidden. Then there are the things I have to do to pretend that everything is alright. Lie to myself and to others, use something to keep it down, contort myself and try to convince myself that there is not a disturbance in my own heart. All these things in the hopes that no one will find out my secret. All the while everyone else is carrying around the same secret. The secret that I don’t know what I am doing, that there are things that I have done that I am ashamed of, that I am afraid I don’t measure up. We all have those thoughts and fears. Over time as we wear them, we think we are them and lose touch with the light of love that lives inside of us. But when we have the courage to reveal ourselves to ourselves and to God; to authentically admit that we are pretending, a certain light falls upon this foggy scene. We can be open to the idea that God does not judge as we judge. Most importantly, God does not love as we love. God is love and he invites us to see that we are love too because we come from Him. Nothing we say or do can change who we are at our core. My prayer for you today is that you admit to yourself and to God something that you are pretending and just see what happens. Make it a great one! Peace~Colleen
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