dailydatewithgod

Vulnerability can be such a tricky thing. God beckons us to draw closer at our most weakened moments.  All of what I know of God is comfort, reassurance, unconditional love, passion, laughter, light, acceptance, and yet when He calls me closer there is a part of me that resists.  It makes no sense to me other than that perhaps my ego is holding on strong.  It builds up this armor of protection around my heart and relies on this structure as though it were some sort of fortress. When that fortress falls apart, my ego just figures I need to build it up again but in that moment, God draws close and asks me to come closer.  There is finally an opening, a chink in the armor, and at that moment I can choose to walk away from the fortress and fall softly into the loving arms of God.  The funny part is that when I am in that in-between space, my mind is going a million miles an hour trying to figure out what happened to the fortress.  It came down unexpectedly–someone shared their heart with me, I shared my heart with another, I experience feelings I have not felt before, etc.  Even now my mind searches for an explanation and none is to be found because it is the language of the heart.  My choice becomes to either surrender to my heart and draw closer to God not knowing what His boundaries are like or turn away and build up the fortress again.  Today I am willing to let go, draw close, and continue to be surprised and softened by love.  My prayer for you today is that you will have the courage to take the road with me, after all, it is fun to have companions on the path 😉  Make it a great one! Peace~Colleen