dailydatewithgod

My favorite made up synonym for perfectionism is stuckism.  Because that is exactly what it is.  When I am being perfectionist I am in fear that I need to get it right, make the right decision, and there is no room for mistakes.  Of course, when I stop and pay attention to what I am doing I see the absurdity.  Most decisions I make are not the be all end all of everything.  Usually, they just lead to a different set of decisions to be made next.  The point it is to choose something and go from there.  I can make the best decision given the information and insight that I have at that moment.  The key for me is trusting that whatever happens I did my best and I will be okay no matter the outcome.  I think my reluctance to make a decision or perfectionism comes from a deep seeded fear that I will step into territory where I will lose myself or not be able to make my way back. Clearly I think I am much more powerful than I am.  But when I am entrenched in this fear I am not able to see the absurdity and I get stuck.  There is no God in this equation.  The experience I am having is all in my head and I am only relying on my own resources.  If that is the reality then yes, it makes sense that I get stuck.  Maybe it is an imprint on my brain from childhood experiences of fear, maybe it doesn’t matter where it comes from.  The most important thing for me today is to recognize that life is about making decisions and as a child of God and an instrument of God, things will go smoother if I involve him in the process.  Now, I still need to use my brain as God is not going to send me a lightning bolt telling me what to do. And, if I get quiet enough I might hear that still soft voice that says, “Hey Colleen, I got you on this one.”  In other words, whatever happens as a result of my decision, I will not have to face it alone.  It’s always nice to know you’ve got back up. 😉  My prayer for you today is when faced with a decision big or small that you stop and connect with your heart (God) and know that you are not alone in this decision.  Make it a great one! Peace~Colleen