dailydatewithgod

We all have these stories about who we are.  Most of them were formed early on based on circumstances.  Then our ego attaches itself to the stories and over time we build a case load of evidence to support the stories.  We operate on automatic pilot from the stories and after a time we don’t even recognize that they are stories.  This is our mind’s survival mechanism.  It is actually quite brilliant because it allows us to function on a daily basis without much conscious thought.  This would all be a good thing if the stories were more aligned with who we are in our hearts and spirits.  Unfortunately, many of the stories were formed with our child mind to explain circumstances that were traumatic or disconcerting.  If we were not in the presence of adults who claimed responsibility for their behavior (i.e.–who were also acting on automatic pilot), then we as children took on the responsibility.  Children are so open that they take on things.  In fact, in the first six years of our lives our brains are on record.  It is not until we reach about age 7 that we begin to really question things. So if we experienced any disconcerting circumstances and there was not adult around to help us process it, then we formed a story that involved us somehow being responsible for what was happening.  All of our stories are quiet common.  When you encounter people who are on a spiritual path who have begun to recognize their false stories you will hear common themes: “It’s my fault.” “I am doing it wrong.” “I am not enough”, “There is not enough”  Regardless of the story that you hear when you get quiet enough to listen, it is just a story.  It is not who we are.  The story of me doing it wrong, has dogged me most of my life.  So much so that I attempted to do everything perfectly.  But guess what?  I failed, because that is not possible.  What I didn’t get until I began to turn my life around is that even if I make a mistake, it does not mean I am a mistake.  My ego will quickly go to this story when something occurs outside of my realm of understanding, even to this day.  The only remedy I have found (after doing an inventory of my life to see the reality of my part in this story), is to turn towards God when the story rears its ugly head and check in with him.  To pause and question the story is the power that we have.  So maybe, just maybe I am doing just as much right today as I am doing wrong.  Maybe, just maybe you are enough as much as you are not enough today. My prayer for you today is to wake up to the story playing in your head and hold it up to the light of God. What does your creator think of your story?  How does he invite you to create a new one?  What does God see you as doing and being right?  Make it a great one!  Peace~Colleen