dailydatewithgod

I am resistant to the idea of relying on anyone or anything but myself.  I would never have thought this about myself but when I look at the actions of my life, I see that I have depended mostly upon myself.  At least, at quick glance it looks that way.  I was considered very independent even in grade school.  I started working part-time as soon as I could to pay for my own dance classes, I worked through college to pay tuition, I moved to a new city knowing virtually no one, I have lived on my own for a long time, etc.  These are all good things and I am not begrudging them.  But, my ego can easily interpret this to mean that I can do it all on my own.  Along the way, however, I have relied on other people and primarily on God to get me through.  Even when I thought I was doing it on my own, I was not.  I relied upon the sun to come up every morning, the job to pay me my wage to put gas in the car, friends to show up for company and companionship, the power company to keep the electricity flowing, and most importantly–God to remind me that there is more to life than what I see in front of me.  God has been there to show me my spirit in times of struggle when I thought I could not take one more step forward, in times of joy to show me the abundance that flows from my heart, and in times of uncertainty to hold me steady as I rode the wave.  It is only by the grace of God that I have not completely destroyed my life.  As someone who thrived on my thinking, especially my negative thinking to the point of slowing walking towards death, it was not in the cards for me to turn that around. It was the willingness that came from the divine spark deep within me, the one that whispered, “there is more to it than this,” that enabled me to grab hold of spiritual principles and turn my life around.  I have witnessed and been a part of so many miracles that I can no longer claim with any seriousness to be self-reliant.  I do my part, and turn the rest over to God in everything.  Just like in the song by Michelle Branch, “Everywhere: Cause you’re everywhere to me.  When I look its you I see.”  My prayer for us today is that we be open to the joy of relying upon God in a way that we have not before and await the miracles that we will experience.  Make it a great one!  Peace~Colleen