Each day is a completely unknown beginning from which to conduct our lives. We recognize that this moment has never happened before and never will again. From this space of unknowing we have unlimited possibilities to embark upon. So many different things and experiences can emerge. Love can show up in a million different ways. Each new breath gives us this opportunity. In theory this sounds wonderful. But what if not knowing what was going to happen next was a scary thing? What if growing up one of the possibilities was danger, pain, or confusion? What if knowing that the danger, pain or confusion was less likely to happen because I kept on the lookout or behaved in a certain manner? As a kid I would give my life for that sense of certainty. To heck with limitless possibilities for good. Knowing that it would not happen was my freedom. Or so I thought. The difficulty was that I used that same philosophy to apply to every part of my life, not just what happened at night at home. I adopted the philosophy that I should know things even if it didn’t make logical sense. The unknown meant danger, pain or confusion and I had already had enough of that. Fast forward to living life in a world of mostly unknowns, trying to control and know things before I possibly could. I would judge myself based on these unrealistic expectations and make myself wrong for not knowing in any area of life. It is called living life in a box. The paradox in my life was that I created this protective layer of weight around me to live inside a small life. When I got into recovery I began to realize that shedding the seeming layers of protection also meant taking God’s hand and stepping outside the box even for just a little at a time. You see the box had been around my heart, not my body. As I have grown and learned about living life on life’s terms without hurting myself and making myself wrong I get to be okay with the unknown. I don’t always like it but I accept it and can distinguish it from my previous experience. It is a day at a time process but one that is so much more rewarding. Today when I start my day on my date with God I place in his hands all that is before me that is unknown and ask for the courage to be present to the possibilities of love.
Be Of Unknowing!
on December 8, 2015My prayer for us is the courage to ask for help in embracing the unknown so that we can experience as many of the possibilities of love present for us today.
Are you willing to take a chance that being present with God in the unknown will allow you to be open to possibilities of love today? Share in the comments.
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