dailydatewithgod

One of the most beautiful elements of a relationship with God that continues to blow my mind is how I am continually called to draw closer.  Even more amazing is that the times I feel that tug on my heart are the times when I don’t even want to be close to myself.  When I am in pain and strife and having feelings of anger and judgment, I want to abandon ship.  I am in the not good stuff, right?  I should know better not to feel that way, right?  Wrong.  They are just feelings.  Indications of energy that is present in my body and in my heart.  I am being called to pay attention to something that is asking me to take a deeper look.  In those times, God is on the ship.  God is ready and willing to take that deeper look but I get scared.  I fear that being present to the “not nice girl feelings” will mean that I am them.  This is why God calls me to draw closer to take a look. God can remind me while I am taking a deeper look that I have not changed.  I am still the presence of love.  I am still innocent in my heart of hearts.  God still sees what he created and knows that anything I think or feel cannot undo the presence of love no matter how much energy it generates.

My prayer for us is a willingness to take a closer look at the deeper energies that are calling for our attention and with God’s hand know that looking at them is part of the experience that cannot change our true essence.

If you could look at the “not nice” feelings or energies that you come up today without thinking they would change who you are at your core, what might you and God discover?  Share in the comments.