God is heart. One of the most beautiful unfolding elements of my relationship with God has been the unsuspecting softening of my heart. I had built up a pretty strong, or so I thought, defensive wall around my heart all under the guise of protection. I had too many experiences of feeling abandoned and heart-broken and my solution was to stiffen and be on guard. Yet at the same time I wanted to connect and feel. I had numbed to my desire to love and be loved because I stopped thinking it was truly possible. The notion of loving others and others loving me sounded cliché and I often questioned it. Sometimes I still do. I wonder, could they really mean it? How is it possible that someone else would want me around just because I am me, not because I meet the expected criteria? It is not as though I set out to intentionally keep people at a distance but I thought I was dependent upon only me to make sure I would not fall prey to the false ideas of love. The word alone is confusing and has so many different meanings. Through our daily meditation dates, God has used the cracks of brokenness I thought my heart was made up of to shine some light. It is as though the consistency of showing up each day in small and unexpected ways, God has shown me there is still the hope and possibility of love without limits, love without expectations, and love with wounding. I realize that God has delivered me from thinking I had to figure love out. My deliverance from my own ideas of what love is supposed to be has been a gift of freedom to my heart. I experience moments when I am so touched by love in whatever form that I can feel it physically in my heart. Did you ever notice that when people are witnesses to love they touch their chest? Maybe we are designed to spend our lives being delivered through our hearts and coming to know love a little more each day.
Be Of Deliverance!
on July 23, 2016My prayer for us is the willingness to witness the deliverance of our ideas of love by letting go of what we think it is supposed to be and witness how it is happening to us more than we realize.
If God wants to deliver our hearts from the burdens of even our concept of love, how can God enable you to step into a delivered experience of your own heart today? Share in the comments.
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