dailydatewithgod

We sparkle from the inside out.  The light within us makes sure of that.  Often times we pile stuff on top of the light and almost cause the spark of light to blow out but it can never be completely snuffed out.  It emanates and originates from something greater than what we are capable of destroying.  When I realized that my light had grown so dim and I began to pray hard. Numbers of desperate pleadings to God not knowing what I was doing.  Years went by before I got any semblance of an answer. I sensed a myself slipping away.  It was hard.   After years of piling on stories of who I thought I was or supposed to be and trying desperately to live them out, I was broken down.  Sometimes it has to get very dark before you start searching for a different source of light or following and unfamiliar glimmer. Looking back on it, I realized I was trying to fuel my life from a fake light. A light that I had come to rely upon other people to kindle. I had let go of the glimmerings of light coming from God through me because they were hidden beneath the  ideas that I no longer questioned.