dailydatewithgod

There is a tenderness in human connection that exists when we want it to. Do we connect with softness and care?  Do we do connect with roughness or obligation? When we have the chance to embrace each other physically or emotionally do we so with abandon or do we hold back?  I remember prior to my recovery when I was as an overweight woman being told what wonderful hugs I gave.  I am sure some of it had to do with the extra layers of padding or perhaps my longing to connect warmly with another human being.  Because I had the extra padding around me I could seemingly let people in close for an embrace without fully allowing them to embrace me. I freely embraced everyone because I thought it was what I was supposed to do and because I was acknowledged for it. It was the best I could do at the time.  I know the distinction now that I do not have the extra layers.  I am acutely aware of whether it feels safe to embrace another or be embraced by them. It is as though I am more present not only to the physical embrace but also the emotional and spiritual embrace that occurs simultaneously.  Today I want to genuinely embrace others and so I need to check in with myself.  If I sense a resistance in myself I do not offer an embrace but find another way to connect.   I check in with God to see if I am holding back out of fear or if it is not for me to offer an embrace because it is not the loving thing to do in the moment.