dailydatewithgod

“Sometimes the very thing we are looking for is the one thing we can’t see.” I remember the first time I heard this line in a song by Vanessa Williams and it struck me.  How can we not see the thing we are looking for?  It also made perfect sense to me, probably because I felt very lost and unclear about many things in my life.  Things had not gone the way that I hoped as I started my college career and I felt very lost. I went on a retreat given by the local Newman center.  There I connected with other freshman and created a community that literally saved me from going off the deep end of despair in college.  I guess one thing I needed that I could not see was a community of people with whom I felt safe and at home.  A place where I could be myself and my gifts were encouraged and accepted.  I thought what I needed was to move away from home and start new in a different town.  The clearing I needed was to let go of my idea of what was needed to feed my soul and allow God to step in and provide for me what I truly needed.  I would have never made it through undergrad if I didn’t have the community of friends I developed, the church where I could go to daily mass or spend time in the blessed sacrament chapel just sitting and crying.  The clearing being called for in my life was a letting go of my ideas of what I needed to feed my heart.