dailydatewithgod

Yesterday, I paused for a moment and reflected on the amount of times I have turned to God in a state of turmoil.  I told myself it is a hard reality being present in the world without numbing out.  I suppose I get fatigued in letting go.  Yet on the other side I know from previous experience that there is at the same depth or more joy and freedom that comes from the letting go.  The biggest troubles I find are the call to let go of things that I didn’t realize I was still holding on to or thought I had let go of already. They are the ones presenting themselves because of the intimacy shared with God in all these years of dating.  My sense of awareness of the trouble resulting from the barriers between me and my truest self and me and my Creator.  I am often baffled at how to approach my thinking and trouble with compassion but criticism and shame do not work.  Those compound the troubles.  So with a weary mind and a confused heart I call and reach out for God to show me how to let of the trouble of the thing or idea which is distancing me from the joy and freedom within my own heart.