dailydatewithgod

God sees our face and beholds it like a sculptor who knows every line and curve of his creation.  God’s gentle regard for our beauty is one I have a hard time seeing in myself especially when it comes to my body.  I am certain God sees something I don’t see.  My relationship with my body has long been a troubled one.  As a child of incest whose bodily reactions did not match the fear, terror, and disgust I was feeling at the same time.  I concluded therefore that my body must be wrong.  It was wrong to feel pleasure and pain at the same time.  It simply did not make sense.  Clearly my father could not explain the madness so I drew my own conclusions.  My body became my enemy and I set upon a course of self-destruction and self-abuse for many years.  Being in recovery for food addiction and letting go of my extra weight became my passage back to right relationship with my body.  Even if one has not suffered the same things I have, we live in a culture that often seems at war with our bodies.  We are given mixed messages about taking care of our bodies but only being deserving if we look a certain way. God beholds our body and our minds as the light of love she created and nothing less.  The simple prayer of God, how do you see . . .  me, my body, my mind, my situation is a simple way to step back into a sense of beholding. Each day on our date, I show up body, mind, and soul wherever I am in my thinking and being and allow God to open me up to the beholding God has of me.