dailydatewithgod

In my 15 years of recovery I have learned more from the mistakes in my life than I ever thought possible.  For someone who spent her life trying so hard to prove that things were not my fault, it was a complete shift in thinking and perspective to even allow myself room to make mistakes.  The beauty of my daily date with God is it taught me that no matter the mistakes I think I made, God would still show up.  Putting aside the fact that I tried to destroy my life through eating and my self-destructive shame and judgment from the incest, God never once asked me to explain myself.  Gently over time God has guided me to look at what I have learned from traveling down that path and shutting him out.  She wants me to see that nothing that happens can reverse the innocent light shinning inside of me and there might even been some gems of learnings of love from my darkest times. I think of God sometimes as a lousy gift-wrapper. The most glorious gifts come wrapped in gnarly packing with no bows.  I certainly don’t think they are worth opening or I should call the bomb squad, but sometimes they get dropped on me and break open.  God calls me to explore them with Her mindset of learning about love.   I am still not the best at being willing to make mistakes but I am willing to look at what the lessons of love are that come from every experience in life.

My prayer for us is the courage to embrace the lessons of love placed in our path and look at them as chances to grow more closely to God today.