dailydatewithgod

Safety is a somewhat precarious concept.  We all have individual senses of what is safe for us and it varies by context.  It changes depending on our age, who we are around, what is happening in the moment, how others are reacting and so on.  There is a societal understanding of what is safe in terms of behavior and situations.  Yet, the concept of safeness crosses context with so many other elements such as boundaries, expectations, morality, and more.  The interesting thing about safeness is that is serves as a precursor to love.  Love cannot flourish if an elements of safety is absent.  If one does not feel safe around someone else that are not going to be willing to open themselves up to share their whole self or receive someone else.  We cannot keep up a guard and keep it down at the same time.  We may go back and forth depending on the context and if that is with the same person it creates confusion.  I spent most of my life looking for a true sense of safety all the while keeping up tremendous guards around my heart.  Each time I let it down, I got hurt, or at least often enough that I stopped letting my guard down.  In the end, my heart broke inside of me and I lost my own sense of safety with myself.  Hurting myself became second nature to me.  When I stepped into recovery there was a willingness residing deep within me to trust in someone and something greater than me just one more time and feel safe to show myself.  Then step by step I began to rebuild my connection with God, with myself and with others.  With others my sense of safeness is still the hardest by far, I return continually to what God teaches me on our daily dates.  If I start my day in the space of eternal safeness where I am beheld as the pure love that I am, I am willing to take that chance because I have a true safe space to return to within me at all times.  I am grateful God has never let go of the safeness within me even when I could not find my way to it.  I am even more grateful for those who came upon my path to show me how to find my way back to it as they had for themselves.