dailydatewithgod

I always feel like it is a loaded question when someone asks me what I want.  Perhaps because for such a long time I thought I had to know first why they wanted to know what I wanted or what they would do with the information.  I am not talking about what I want to eat, that’s easy and its clear it is truly about what I want.  But when it comes to what I want in life, in a relationship, in an experience, or when working towards something, it is harder. For a long time I felt it did not matter what I wanted.  It only mattered if what I wanted did not rock the boat, make others uncomfortable or matched what someone else wanted or expected of me.  I learned to downplay what I wanted to accommodate others and lost myself in the process.  On my daily dates God has shown me that acknowledging what I want is not good or bad, it is just an expression of where I am in the moment.  If I am not willing to acknowledge the wanting then I am avoiding myself.  To get to know myself better I can start by paying attention to what I am wanting and even look behind or underneath it.  Since life is about the process not the content, my greatest understanding of myself may come from looking at why it is that I want that thing or experience.  As I get more familiar with this process I can show up with greater authenticity and be who God wants me to be.