dailydatewithgod

In the small spaces of our lives when no one is watching we find ourselves in a moment of choice.  We can do what we think we are expected to do or we can do what our hearts want us to do.  In some cases they may be the same thing but at the end of the day we are beholden to our hearts not expectations. My daily dates with God have brought a clarity to my life that I did not expect. To be honest, I did not realize how muddy my thinking was when I started.  I just figured life was overwhelming and some how I would muddle through.  I would follow along doing what was expected of me and since everyone else seemed to be pleased, I would be too, eventually.  Yet, I was trying to blot out my life by numbing myself with food and self-hatred so something did not line up with my being. I built up a wall around my heart so thick I could barely access it.  When God invited me to look into what I had created and decide as an adult if it was still working for me, the process of clarity began.  Now I notice when my thinking steps me back into murky waters and I am invited by God to take a breath and reach out my hand.  Some days it takes me longer than others but God does not judge the length of time.  The moment I wake up to see what I am thinking and doing,  the clarity begins.