dailydatewithgod

One of the first key ideas presented to me in my path out of darkness is acceptance.  Sure, I had heard the word before but it often sounded like a defeated position.  Just accept things how they are.  Accept that it is not going to get any better. Don’t bother fighting it, accept the consequences.  I suppose like most things in my life at that point, it was tainted by my reality of feeling stuck and defeated myself.  I understood the victim mentality though I fought it as best as I could.  It showed up in my passive vocabulary and my desire to make sure others were happy with me.  It showed up in the way I kept hurting myself with food and speaking to myself with vicious language.  It seemed as though the only thing I let happen was bad stuff.  It seemed that way but my vision was eschewed   Right in front of me and all around me were examples of me letting good things happen. I learned that letting things happen, accepting things is not a defeatist attitude if what I am doing is reconciling myself to life on life’s terms.  There is freedom and power in not needing circumstances to be different.  As I grew closer to God on our daily dates, I began to see that my being and essence was not dependent upon circumstances and outward appearances.  As long as I know in whom I am grounded and loved, I am letting the truth of who I am come through all the circumstances and experiences.  It is not about the outside world reflecting who I am.  It is about me accepting the truth of who I am and letting it shine.  It is about not apologizing for not being what someone else wants or thinks they need from me.  It is about being the truth of who I am and loving them as they are.  Letting myself be who I am in God’s eyes is powerful and loving.