dailydatewithgod

When we pause and take a moment to listen to the chatter that goes on in our minds, it can be quiet alarming. Most of us do not pay attention to the constant dialog going on in between our ears.  We have become accustomed to the sound. It is like white noise in the background.  But pausing, taking a breath, and watching the conversation can provide a great deal of insight into what makes us tick.  I learned to pay attention to the words and the tone in which I heard them being spoken.  When I first began to do this on my daily prayer and meditation dates with God I was embarrassed.  As if God did not already know what had been going on.  She was delighted that I had the courage to take a look.  The first step was to sit and listen.  The objective was to observe without getting drawn in.  It is not easy to do and it is only through practice that I am able to do it today.  I  was shocked when I realized how much power I give the conversation.  I cried when I realized I would not talk to my worst enemies the way I talk to myself.  I laughed when I realized it was pretty much the same thing over and over again but the content was a little different.  The underlying message was along the lines of doing things wrong, not being or doing enough, or how it was all going to turn out for the worst.  Who needs the local news when these are the headlines chattering in my head?  God taught me in the space created by the observance to consider the source.  By dropping my attention from my head to my heart I began to hear a different conversation.  It is this continual pausing and choosing to drop into my heart especially when the noise in my head gets loud that gives me room to breathe.  It puts the head discussion in perspective and opens me up to asking God for another way to see things.