dailydatewithgod

The other day at work I was leaving a meeting in which I conducted a presentation.  I very much enjoyed sharing and discussing the information with the group who seemed opened and receptive to the ideas and how they might apply for their lives.  The topic was about perception, the beautiful nature of our brains leading into the power of mindfulness for ourselves as effective human beings and the effect on our relationships with others. I shared openly the impact this way of working in the world has been for me over the last 15 years.  Throughout the presentation I could sense this subtle questioning in the back of my mind if I was the one who should be sharing this information.  I was an impostor syndrome moment. Who was I to be sharing this info?  Do I really practice these ideas all the time?  Was I conducting myself in a fashion matching what I was engaging them in discussing?  What if I wasn’t?  It was not enough to be distracting but I was aware of it.  I did, as usual make clear that these are things that I practice and I do not execute perfectly, but the voice in my head felt that was still not enough.  Thankfully I had the courage to mention to a colleague afterwards who subtlety reminded me of the power of receiving such a criticism, were it to come, as an opportunity to demonstrate the very principles I was sharing about.  The beauty of her subtle confidence in my ability to handle such a situation put me at ease and the nagging voice disappeared.  I recalled with gratitude that there was a time in my life when I would not have shared with someone the negative story spinning in my head and let it tip me into more self-doubt and self-judgment.  I would not have risked letting someone in.  I am grateful for my daily dates with God where I have learned the freedom of being completely honest with the one who created me.  I felt a wink from God when after our conversation as I walked to my car, a butterfly flew by.  The very animal synonymous with transformation just subtly crossed my path as if God was saying, I AM here to remind you of who you are today.  The power of subtleties is in their ability to be the tipping point and the last straw that can send us in one direction or another.  If we are on the path of who we are we will find travelers human and others to remind us of who we are in direct and subtle ways.