dailydatewithgod

Do you ever have times when you want to stay a little longer?  When you do not want something to end?  When it feels like time went by so fast and you barely had an opportunity to savor the experience? Those are the spaces where we want to linger.  It is more than a simple resistance to change, it is a connection to something that has been tapped inside of us which knows we need more of it, whatever it is. How do we know when our desire to linger is coming from wanting to savor the experience a little more or avoiding moving forward? What about the times when we do not want to linger?  Sometimes I think I would like a manual on how to handle those situations.  Sure, I have the 12 steps, the tenants of Christianity in which I was raised, people whom I admire, and things I do that I know make my life work for the best.  Yet in those moments of confusion when I can’t seem to move forward, I find myself searching for an answer.  When I am in fear, I want to know that what I do will not completely mess me up.  I am concerned about looking bad or like I don’t know what I am doing.  In those moments, I have rushed through lingering in my heart and pushed to having to know.  I move from being human to doing human. To linger longer in my heart opens up spaces that I make up will be hard to walk through, so I go back into my head to figure it out.  What moves the courage within me is hearing God whisper in my ear, “Come daughter, linger a while longer in your heart. I am here in the mess of it, you are not alone.”  After many years of our daily dates, I have learned to trust the still soft voice because though I might be scary, a little bit of lingering leads to greater freedom.