dailydatewithgod

I think God gets quite a kick out of me and the way I think.  Sometimes I am certain I can sense God playfully elbowing me and saying, “silly girl, what are you thinking?” I am God’s consultant on my life and am constantly providing input on how I think things should be going. I do not even charge a consultation fee, isn’t that nice of me?  It sounds like a simple thing to withdraw from a situation and let go of expectations but it is not.  Each of us is usually fairly certain we know what is the best thing to happen or experience.  God seems to have different ideas.  I think the best way to be good at my job is to do everything perfectly. God thinks it is to have as many learning experiences that open my heart in the process is the best way.  What I experience in reality is what I see as God’s will.  After years of trying to fight reality I finally learned the power of withdrawing.  Not withdrawing from reality but withdrawing from the fight for things to go the way I want or expect.  I am not sure where I got the idea that I know best but it creeps up still.  When I lose sight of God as the one who sees all, knows all, and loves all, I think I need to step into manager mode.  Unfortunately, manager mode can quickly escalate to drill sergeant mode and judge mode.  Before I know it not only did my plan not succeed but I am an idiot for trying it and not knowing it would fail.  If I am willing to withdraw my ideas of how things should go, I experience the presence of a power who knows more than me and welcomes whatever I might learn from any kind of trying, even trying my ideas.  Withdrawing is not just about letting go of my ideas what should or should not happen in my life or the lives of others.  It is about withdrawing from having to be the judge, juror, and executioner of reality.  It allows for the process of life to flow and unfold revealing its beautiful lessons.   Withdrawing my thinking is the most loving, gracious, powerful, and intelligent (sometimes being silly is a good place to start).