dailydatewithgod

The good news about things coming to an end is they make way for new things to begin.  If we do not fall, there is nothing to rise from.  The emergence of our lives in the present come from what we have overcome in the past.  We cannot credit the way we rise without acknowledging what we have risen from.  Sometimes we want to gloss over what got us to the emergence of our lives currently, but it is not the whole story.  What is the point of rising from ashes to emerge a new person if we pretend there was no fire.  It leaves the story of our lives incomplete.  It does not have to be dramatic, just an acknowledgment of the reality.  I know sometimes I would rather leave out the part about being over 300 plus pounds but I would be lying if the significance of my emergence as a woman in a healthy body did not come from there.  I have no desire to go back there for many reasons not the least of which is the physical burden.  Recognizing our emergence as dependent upon what we emerged from puts us in a place of gratitude.  I do not know if I had not reached the weight I did and experience the emotional and spiritual bankruptcy that went with it, if I would have turned my life around.  I value the life that has emerged out of the ashes more than I can say.  To live, breathe, and feel is such a gift.  Even when it is hard, it is a gift.  I would much rather face all of life soberly than go back to the numbing fog I was living in with a shut down heart and bracing many moments with fear.  Emergence as a whole human being takes energy and effort to maintain and I do not always want to do it.  Remembering what I emerged from reminds me it is worth it.