dailydatewithgod

As an experiment I declared February a month of self-love. The intention was to ultimately create or open myself up more to the love that I believe God has placed within my heart and let go of that which blocks that from expression.  For me this shows up in self-criticism, self-doubt, self-judgment, and belief in my stories that I did something wrong, that I am not enough, and don’t get too excited because this will not last.  Wow–so glad I exposed that to you all.  Maybe some of you can relate.  I learned many years ago that one way to look at intimacy is by recognizing it as “into me I see.”  So by stepping into a space of self-love, I embark on a journey of getting to know me at a deeper level, connecting with God within me at a deeper level.  But there is a long staircase down through the chambers of my heart where the stories reside and the well-worn grooves are patterned around my heart.  I literally walked right into a lot of loudness in my head and fear that I was being egotistical and selfish and who am I to love me.  The self-judgment and self-criticism seems to have ramped up and the self-doubt and looking for the something that is wrong got bigger.  I am grateful that I have learned not to be daunted by the blocks that show up.  Instead, because I am rooted and close to God, I can see those blocks as the fear and resistance–the boogeymen, if you like, of my ego that wants to keep me separate from you, from love, and from a fuller life experience.  I have chosen to welcome it in and listen to what it has to say and treat it with the same love that I called upon God for when I embarked on this month’s intention.  So, on this day of LOVE, for me the most loving thing I can do is stand in the space of recognition that I am love as much as any other creation on this planet and I can share what I have, no more, no less, with all those around me.  Today I choose to see whatever happens as a message of love, even if it comes in a seemingly non-loving package.  My prayer for us today is that we have the courage to draw closer to love in whatever shape or form it shows up and ask God for the courage to see as LOVE, to be LOVE no matter what our initial reaction might be.  Make it a great one!  Peace~Colleen