dailydatewithgod

God marvels.  As I wake up and prepare myself for my daily meditation date with God there is a hint of excitement and wonder as to what will come of my day as I begin it with this ritual. The experience of having time each day at the beginning to just be still feels new even after all these years of doing it.  I marvel at how God continually meets to welcome me with love.  I am amazed at my ability to accept it when some days my head seems very clouded with many thoughts or I fall asleep during our time together.  I am thankful that these dates are as much about me showing up for myself as they are about meeting God.  There are days when I feel disconnected from both God and myself but the commitment to the practice lives out its intention and definition of practice because I do it anyway.  It is a mystical experience to participate in something that has no physical measurement and yet know it is the very thing that has altered the course of my life in beautiful and profound ways.  It is a hope that there is always more going on than what meets the eye.

God is integral. In our wholeness we are the most sincere expression of love.  God created us in this manner because love must come from a place of truth.  We all have come across someone who seemed insincere.  We have all had times when we were not sincere with ourselves or others.  We sometimes struggle with determining if what we are doing or saying is coming from the truth of who we are or something we have adopted because it was expected.  The drive to survive is deep within us.  Equally deep within us is the everlasting presence of love.  When they are in alignment with one another we are able to love with sincerity.  Remembering that love is the essence of who we are and it will support our survival on all levels, takes the burden of having to fight for our survival.  God did not create us to struggle to find love.  God invites us at every possible moment to open our eyes and our hearts to the presence of love within our own hearts.  It has been here all along and we can no more erase it within us than we can undo God.  My daily meditation dates with God have provided moments of getting in touch with the presence of love in and around me even when I least expect it.  When I get quiet and sense the presence of God with me no matter what, I can let go and trust. It is not easy, but it is simple.  Letting go and trusting in the most sincere fashion starts with being honest with God.  I tell God, I am scared and I don’t trust, please help me to see the love you have placed within me and around me.  Lord, all I know how to do is struggle and fight with this experience and this way of thinking, help unblock my mind and my heart so I am able to see the presence of love.  It is my hope and my experience that this sincerity draws God even closer.

God reveals.  There is nothing hidden with God.  When we find ourselves wondering where God is, the real question is more likely what are we not seeing?  When I feel like God has disappeared, I have to be willing to begin to look for God in a different way.  God exposes loves on all levels and all forms.  If I am looking at something and see no element of love in it, I have lost my true sight.  It usually occurs when I have a fixed notion of what is going to happen.  I think there is a certainty of how love will show up and it doesn’t.  I hold back from being open to love in a new way because I fear it will expose me as a fool.  When I look back on my life on the times I was a fool for love and while my ego was bruised, I don’t regret it.  I would rather chance being exposed on the search for love than stuck in my obscure world where loving isn’t showing itself.  God designed love as a flow.  If I am holding tight to my ideas, I am not in the flow of life.  In the end it is not the kind of exposure that my ego fears that draws me into love.  The exposure of love is a calling to expand the breadth and depth of our hearts and open the eyes of our soul in the moment.