dailydatewithgod

In the winter months when it gets cold and rainy (yes, even here in southern California) it feels like there is a disconnect.  Perhaps it is the extra layers on the body, the lack of sun in the sky, or just the focus on dealing with harsher elements that can wear on me. Though I am originally from New York and have certainly dealt with harsh winters, I somehow lack the fortitude to deal with a “real” winter on any long-term basis.  My heart goes out to those who are dealing with the winter storm in the Northeast.  I think the only thing that really stuck with me being from New York (aside from my attitude, of course) is wanting to be close to the coast. The one gem that I do see being in a time of winter (whatever that looks like–physically, emotionally, spiritually) is a longing for a freer time.  A time of warmth, of exposure to the elements without needing so much protection.  A time of play and of juiciness that comes from new life in spring and fall.  Being in a time of winter however, cultivates that yearning for a more exposed connection to myself and to the world. A time when we wont’ need so many buffers (in this case layers of clothing or umbrellas).  I see the same thing happen in my relationship with God.  During those times of distance from God–whether intentional or spaces of growth before the next level of connection, I feel the yearning in my heart.  As I let go of old stories of my ego and connect again with who I am in God, I find that I yearn to connect more.  The beauty of yearning for that connection is it makes me aware of the ways that I need God, of the ways that I rely on a power greater than myself to make it through the day-to-day and most of all the way that God is the best way for me to connect with me.  Somehow by going within my heart and preparing for the next step (whatever that may be) and facing the longing to be more connected I expose myself to myself.  What I am trying to convey, although at the moment feel very inadequate at doing so, is that the times of yearning for connection, to God, to ourselves, to others is just as sacred as the times when we feel connected.  There is blessing in all of it.  The time in the womb is just as important as the moment we breathe new life and cry for the first time.  Life begins now.  I implore you to be at peace with wherever you are today and trust that God is with you and you are with you, whether it feels like you think it should feel or not.  Make it a great one!  Peace~Colleen

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