dailydatewithgod

I am so grateful that life is about practice.  Not in the sense that this is some sort of dress rehearsal, but rather that it is about learning.  Somehow I missed that memo as a kid.  I thought it was all about doing it right the first time.  I mistook mistakes for a belief that I was a mistake.  My ego was wedded to the story that I was wrong, that I did something wrong.  So I spent most of my life trying my best to make sure I did everything right so that no one would tell me out loud that I did it wrong and confirm the story in my head that I was wrong.  That is a very restricting way to live. There is little room for growth when I am supposed to know how to do things I could not possibly know how to do.  Crazy thinking, huh?  Welcome to my world.  I am so grateful that I have had an opportunity to shift my thinking.  It is not easy to let go of that story because it was working for me.  That is the funny thing about the things in our life that we do, they work for us.  The first step is admitting that we do it, so we have to be aware, the next step is to assess which parts of that thinking and thus behavior are working for us and which parts are not.  Then I can decided if I want to ask God to remove from me that part of the characteristic or way of being.  I have to be ready to do things differently.  So that requires me to be ready to act and think in the opposite way.  I don’t get to wait around for God to take something from me, I get into action and behave in the opposite manner.  I am responsible for taking the action, despite my thinking.  Sometimes the thinking lines up before the action, but not always and I cannot wait around to be inspired to do differently.  Besides everything in my being is so used to going with automatic pilot–that is how we work. That is why life requires a conscious effort, to be awake, be ready and be willing to do things different from our early programming.  I am most grateful for the ways of being that I created as a kid because they got me through.  But as an adult a lot of them are no longer useful, so I need to reassess and determine which ones I want to keep and which ones I need God’s help to change.  I can stand ready to do different.  There is a letter that the apostle paul wrote to his followers in which he mentions that as children we had a way of being and doing, but when we are renewed in Christ we let go of childish ways.  When I am in connection with God, I am a woman of faith who trusts that I am loved and taken care of.  This gives me the freedom to be ready to make mistakes, to try things out, to be imperfect because I am connected to a God that is perfect.  My prayer for you today is that you may be ready to step into your full self, your God self, even if for just one moment, one action–after all, practice makes perfect, right?  Peace~Colleen

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